thief or bugglar

how would you feel when the one you most trusted after your family is actually the one you should not put your trust on?????! well, this happened to me almost every time.. and latest plot was slaughtered out last week..damn fucking news.. yep, he was there when my mom kept on lecturing me about my missing money..he was there when i cried, telling him that the money was my graduation present and i was supposed to buy a sLr camera..he was there when i told him i suspected my sister as the one who took it..he was there when i had to struggle to collect money back in order to get the exact amount that my mom gave me..what a man, what a son-ova-biatch..

after all these times, he is the one who has been the mastermind of all the missing money.. plus, the missing jewellery.. even he met with an accident while driving my car and he has no licence..so i had to use my own money almost thousand something to cover almost everything..
he had been there all these times
he had been the most ignorant guy of whom had stolen some pple's stuff
he had been the most 'lelaki paling tak berguna dan tak tahu malu hanya tau gna duet perempuan and da la gna, curi plak lg..laki jenis hape tah smpi sggup bia seorg kakak mengesyaki adiknya sndiri...' i really hate dis guy but until now he doesnt noe that i know this fact..how should i do to make him pay??

yep. u're caught red-handed!

give me strength..

..the news..
pretty damn shocking
all that i can say..
im deeply frustrated..
cruely torn..
helplessly givin up..
leaving myself clueless..
of wut shud i do next?
it may be easy to steal pple's hearts
but
it is not right to steal pple's trust
it is not right to steal pple's assets
wasnt everytg enuff?

or shud i say, ive had enuff?

dear God..thnx for showing me 'things' not everyone gets to see..
thank-you :)

who are u again?

silence is 'reasonably' easy

if you dont wanna put a fight - remain silence

if you dont wanna trigger things up - keep it silent

if you hate to let your feelings out - shush

if you noe nothing - shut up

but somehow it is only reasonably easy

because on certain occasions, being silence shows an admission

when pple ask u sumthing and u juz keep quiet, not becuz ure admitting everything

BUT

u seriously dont wanna make thing worst than it is now...

ure trying ur very best to be d person u're not

where before, u wont keep quiet and u will say ur stand for evertyhg..

somehow, the era is changing

the law is changing

even the pple living in it are also changing

for good? for worse? depends on one's perception..

im tired

im exhausted

i surrender

i'llbe d old me no more

no more mercy

things done by me are only becuz of respponsibility

dont talk bout loves

dont talk bout affections

dont talk bout feelings

dont talk about respects

dont talk about humanities

STOP!!

ive had enough!

being not perfect is nice

not that i dont wanna be perfect

it's better to be no one

rather than to be sumone and being put a whole lotsa burdensome so that that sumone can fulfill the criteria that the person that sumone is trying to be sumone and that person juz will never be satisfied and putting more and more pressure for that sumone to be sumone..

tq for making me ME~

taking chances~

Don't know much about your life.
Don't know much about your world, but
Don't want to be alone tonight,
On this planet they call earth.

You don't know about my past, and
I don't have a future figured out.
And maybe this is going too fast.
And maybe it's not meant to last,

But what do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?
Never knowing if there's solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say,
What do you say?

I just want to start again,
And maybe you could show me how to try,
And maybe you could take me in,
Somewhere underneath your skin?

What do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?

Never knowing if there's solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say,
What do you say?

And I had my heart beaten down,
But I always come back for more, yeah.
There's nothing like love to pull you up,
When you're laying down on the floor there.
http://www.elyricsworld.com/taking_chances_lyrics_glee_cast.html
So talk to me, talk to me,
Like lovers do.
Yeah walk with me, walk with me,
Like lovers do,
Like lovers do.

What do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?
Never knowing if there's solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say,
What do you say?

Don't know much about your life
And I don't know much about your world

intuition

“The only real valuable thing is intuition.”~Albert Einstein

sumthg

I’ve had a wonderful evening – but this wasn’t it

beauty tips

A dear old lady was asked what she used to make her complexion so beautiful and her whole being so bright and attractive.

She answered:

"I use for my lips, truth

I use for my voice, kindness

I use for my ears, compassion

I use for my hands, charity

I use for my figure, uprightness

I use for my heart, love

I use for any who do not like me, prayer."

ayat-ayat cinta

Synopsis

Ayat Ayat Cinta is a beautifully portrayed Islamic love story – n im truly in luv with dis story...
it is a tale of a virtuous Muslim protagonist who overcomes all obstacles of life maintaining pure ideals.

Fahri bin Abdillah is a poor, intelligent student who wins a scholarship to complete his graduate degree at Egypt's esteemed Al Azhar University. Very disciplined and dedicated by nature, Fahri embraces his life in Cairo, completing his studies and translation of religious books with full enthusiasm, exactly according to pre-determined targets.

Only one goal is left unattempted: the pursuit of marriage.

For Fahri is innocent and pure, he doesn't believe in the concept of relationships prior to marriage. He is inarticulate and shy around women. All his life, only two women have been close to him – his mother and grandmother.

Life changes drastically in Egypt for he suddenly finds himself surrounded by four beautiful, distinctly different women.

Maria Girgis, a shy, open-minded Coptic-Christian neighbor who is attracted to the teachings of the Holy Al Quran, finds herself falling in love with Fahri (a fact she only reveals to her diary).

Nurul, a student at Al Azhar like Fahri, is the Muslim daughter of a renowned Indonesian cleric. Fahri feels unworthy of her and thus ignores his feelings for her, leaving her confused and guessing.

Noura, an abused Egyptian neighbor, develops strong romantic feelings for Fahri, who in turn simply sympathizes with her situation. His romantic rejection destroys her and eventually leads to a false accusation of rape.

Aisha, a German Turkish student in Cairo haunts Fahri with her beautiful eyes. Following an incident on the metro where Fahri defends her against narrow minded bigoted Muslims, both immediately develop feelings for each other.

As the story unravels, the protagonist makes the audience face the daunting decisions he himself faces, and forces us to marvel at his undying loyalty to the true ideals of Islam as he ultimately makes the choice of a lifetime.

Character(s)

Fahri bin Abdillah, 28 (Fedi Nuril)
Poor, intelligent student who wins a scholarship to complete his graduate degree at Egypt's esteemed Al Azhar University. Very disciplined and dedicated by nature, Fahri embraces his life in Cairo, completing his studies and translation of religious books with full enthusiasm, exactly according to pre-determined targets.

Only one goal is left unattempted: the pursuit of marriage. For Fahri is innocent and pure, and doesn't believe in the concept of relationships prior to marriage. He is inarticulate and shy around women. All his life, only two women have been close to him – his mother and grandmother.

Life changes drastically in Egypt for he suddenly finds himself surrounded by four beautiful, distinctly different women.


Aisha, 25 (Rianti Cartwright)
A German Turkish student in Cairo haunts Fahri with her beautiful eyes. Following an incident on the metro where Fahri defends her against narrow minded bigoted Muslims, both immediately develop feelings for each other.

As the story unravels, the protagonist makes the audience face the daunting decisions he himself faces, and forces us to marvel at his undying loyalty to the true ideals of Islam as he ultimately makes the choice of a lifetime.

Maria Girgis, 26 (Carissa Putri)
A shy, open-minded Coptic-Christian neighbor who is attracted to the teachings of the Holy Al Quran, finds herself falling in love with Fahri (a fact she only reveals to her diary).

Noura bin Bahadur, 22 (Zaskia Adya Mecca)
An abused Egyptian neighbor, develops strong romantic feelings for Fahri, who in turn simply sympathizes with her situation. His romantic rejection destroys her and eventually leads to a false accusation of rape.

Nurul binti Ja'far Abdur Razaq, 26 (Melanie Putria)
A student at Al Azhar like Fahri, is the Muslim daughter of a renowned Indonesian cleric. Fahri feels unworthy of her and thus ignores his feelings for her, leaving her confused and guessing.



Soundtrack
** means I lurve that song :)

1. "Ayat-Ayat Cinta" (Rossa) — 3:48 **
   
2. "Jalan Cinta" (Sherina) — 4:32
3. "Takdir Cinta" (Rossa) — 3:32
4. "Tercipta Untukku" (featuring Rossa) (Ungu) — 4:25 **
   
5. "Andai Ku Tahu" (Ungu) — 4:46
6. "Opening Scene" (Music Scoring) — 2:41
7. "Letter From Noura" (Music Scoring) — 1:18
8. "Thalagi" (Music Scoring) — 1:13
9. "The Basket" (Music Scoring) 1:06
10. "Ayat-Ayat Cinta" (Minus One) — 3:47
11. "Jalan Cinta" (Minus One) — 4:32
12. "Takdir Cinta" (Minus One) — 3:30 **
    

the Novelist
credits to Habiburrahman El-Shirazy
(Novelis Sarjana Al Azhar Universiti Cairo)


Pemenang Award Novel Terpuji 2005
Pemenang Anugerah Penghargaan The Most Favourite Book 2005

* I bought the book too, huhu :)

now?

i guess dis is the end of everything....

the flame of love is now juz a dark loneliness
before this, when i go wrong, u go right after me
when i say leave me alone, u go right beside me
when i say im ok, u know i lie..
now?
ignorance filled the atmospheres..
coldness breathed near my ears..
mmm...may i seek for ur apology
sorry that im nothg but trouble (--)
an apology is a good way to have the last word

incredulous

b..

i love u syg..
damn much in love with u..

b..
since the incident that i told you, ive been burdened with calls and curiousities
taking a swipe at me..playing psycho on me..collapsing my senses..
my mind ws pregnant with irrationality..
i became stupid..
thinking without logic..i ws senseless..

im sorry syg..
u noe u're my angel :)
please guide me as always..

whut should i do?

sacrificium~

all that im living for and all that im dying for

are actually all that i cant ignore, not even a glance away

feeling alone at night though everyone's in sight
i can feel the night is beginning to separate me from living
understanding me more than my own goodself
im confidence to say this after all ive seen
after all ive been through
piercing every thought together, to find the words to make me better
if i only knew how to pull myself apart
if only i knew how to make me better

now
nothing that i wanted for although i used to want more
making me to lock the last open door
and now my shadow are gaining on me

i do believe that dreams are sacred that ive lived to feel them
jz take my darkest fear and play them
play them like a lullaby
play them like a reason why

should it hurt to love your guardians?
should it hurt to love the your disambuigations?
or better to hate it?
should it hurt when they saw none?

should it hurt to love your bloodties?
should it hurt to be in ones position?
should it hurt to respect both pleas?
should it hurt to choose not aggrievate the situation?
should it hurt to be jeopardised on ones situation?
should it hurt to choose your own future ?
your own path?

should it hurt to love your life?
should it hurt to love and be loved?
should it hurt to love the one you love?
should it hurt to be loved in return?
or, to let them go that you wont hurt them?

should it hurt to be yourself?
to express yourself?

should i feel like i do?
or, should i lock the last open door?
martyrs?

to live in fucking silence?
to be a damn ignorance?
to not being ...me?

você é meu tudo!

Eu acho
Eu nãotenho mais alma

minha vida e so para as aulas e trabalhos
levantar-se cedo na manhã
voltando muito tarde da noite

Eu quase não tenho tempo para mim mesmo
Eu quase não tenho tempo para meus amados

o que eles pensam?
Eu sou workaholic?
Eu não nunca se preocupam com as pessoas à minha volta?

meu namorado, eu não tenho tempo para a mensagem dele
Eu me sinto como a pior namorada na terra
ele tem tudo que eu quero
mas eu quase não lhe dar a minha atenção
ele diz, ele entende
... ainda me sinto mal por ele

Lamento, meu amor
Eu realmente amo você
perdoar meu descuido
Vou tentar fazê-lo de volta para você
você é meu tudo!

position or intention?

have u ever been in a situation whre
u were just trying to lend a hand
but instead
pple go against u
& only look on ur position (i.e exbf, drugaddict, robber, son of a bitch)
rather than ur contention or intention
???????

...mmm...
....sedey...