incredulous

b..

i love u syg..
damn much in love with u..

b..
since the incident that i told you, ive been burdened with calls and curiousities
taking a swipe at me..playing psycho on me..collapsing my senses..
my mind ws pregnant with irrationality..
i became stupid..
thinking without logic..i ws senseless..

im sorry syg..
u noe u're my angel :)
please guide me as always..

whut should i do?

sacrificium~

all that im living for and all that im dying for

are actually all that i cant ignore, not even a glance away

feeling alone at night though everyone's in sight
i can feel the night is beginning to separate me from living
understanding me more than my own goodself
im confidence to say this after all ive seen
after all ive been through
piercing every thought together, to find the words to make me better
if i only knew how to pull myself apart
if only i knew how to make me better

now
nothing that i wanted for although i used to want more
making me to lock the last open door
and now my shadow are gaining on me

i do believe that dreams are sacred that ive lived to feel them
jz take my darkest fear and play them
play them like a lullaby
play them like a reason why

should it hurt to love your guardians?
should it hurt to love the your disambuigations?
or better to hate it?
should it hurt when they saw none?

should it hurt to love your bloodties?
should it hurt to be in ones position?
should it hurt to respect both pleas?
should it hurt to choose not aggrievate the situation?
should it hurt to be jeopardised on ones situation?
should it hurt to choose your own future ?
your own path?

should it hurt to love your life?
should it hurt to love and be loved?
should it hurt to love the one you love?
should it hurt to be loved in return?
or, to let them go that you wont hurt them?

should it hurt to be yourself?
to express yourself?

should i feel like i do?
or, should i lock the last open door?
martyrs?

to live in fucking silence?
to be a damn ignorance?
to not being ...me?

você é meu tudo!

Eu acho
Eu nãotenho mais alma

minha vida e so para as aulas e trabalhos
levantar-se cedo na manhã
voltando muito tarde da noite

Eu quase não tenho tempo para mim mesmo
Eu quase não tenho tempo para meus amados

o que eles pensam?
Eu sou workaholic?
Eu não nunca se preocupam com as pessoas à minha volta?

meu namorado, eu não tenho tempo para a mensagem dele
Eu me sinto como a pior namorada na terra
ele tem tudo que eu quero
mas eu quase não lhe dar a minha atenção
ele diz, ele entende
... ainda me sinto mal por ele

Lamento, meu amor
Eu realmente amo você
perdoar meu descuido
Vou tentar fazê-lo de volta para você
você é meu tudo!

position or intention?

have u ever been in a situation whre
u were just trying to lend a hand
but instead
pple go against u
& only look on ur position (i.e exbf, drugaddict, robber, son of a bitch)
rather than ur contention or intention
???????

...mmm...
....sedey...

no intention 2 kill~~

now im doing my attachment kt one of the famous laywer's office in penang. he's a gd fren of my dad. first day i went there, da kene jerkah haha..cuz i was late (few secs only) to gve him d resume that he wanted - cuz i printed from his office, tu lmbt sket, huahua :p. but im okay with the screaming2 thingy, cuz dat is his nature, even his wife also told me not to take it personally..yes i wont :D

he gave me loads of books to be read upon..
i read my 1st book, 'no intention to kill - a true story' written by Vijayandran Thanigasalam, a lawyer in msia.


this book is a true story about an indonesian maid who was convicted for murdering her employer. this news was spread all over msia, written everywhere in the newspapers. it surrounds the processes in the court, the issues that were raised, even the technical probs that PP failed to bring into lights, how the defendant fight for her life, in which after 8 yrs spending time in the jail, going in and out the court - the maid was released.



i read it within a day.

and d best part, after giving back d book to my master, about 3 days later, i met with d writer. he gave me his copy and signed on it. thanx to my master actly, theyve noen each other n he asked for me to be given a copy ;p

tq sir.

from this book, i have jotted out some of the words that i kind of liking them.so let me jz put them down here. sharing is caring :D

- to live life in a stigma of insanity wud be worth living
- an outright acquittal was on the cards!
- storm in a tea cup
- rather excited than nervous
- as bad as bad can be
- a dream-like-state
- 'beyond reasonable doubt' dont mean 'beyond a shadow of doubt'
- cowards die many times before their death but the valiant never taste of death but once - shakespeare's julius ceaser
- human conception originates from a murky situation